Hope cures old wounds

10505565_271992656337777_3335423019850516985_n‘Hypochondria? It’s the only disease I haven’t met yet.’ One of the better jokes I can actually remember, as I simply don’t do long ones.

MS? Awkward, puzzling, easier said than done, and the type of illness that carries this tagline, “The illness is mine, but the tragedy theirs,” when asked how your family feels about your condition. Buzzwords that don’t exactly calm down an overactive mind.

Any illness is unwelcome, that much we can agree on. MS can strike in so many different ways that your life often resembles a war zone. When I entered the MS academy, I read the small print and knew it wouldn’t be a 365-day holiday. But, if one good thing has come from being diagnosed ten years ago, it’s the perception that no matter what happens, life goes on.

And boy, does it go on.

There are countless symptoms that can hit you at any given time and for any given reason. In the past, superbugs and near-blood-clots found their way into my system. How? My army of doctors can tell you all about it. Outcome? It takes a strong mind not to give in to doomsday scenarios every day.

As sobering as this post sounds, I tolerate MS. There’s no resentment or blame, no more heartache, guilt or doubt. I find solace in seeing science produce more and better research results and medication. Clinical trials are moving forward at a pace that will eventually lead to an easier life with an illness that is as fickle as MS.

PwMS (People with MS) often talk about a cure each time new research results are published. Timeframes can be testing and lengthy, as it can take up to a decade between research and clinical news becoming public knowledge and the eventual market release of new products. I admit though that I try hard not to be overly excited when I see headlines linking the word ‘cure’ to ‘MS’. Being of the optimistic kind, though, I find it hard resetting my upbeat thinking back to ‘Relax, it’ll take another decade’ mode.

For my family and friends, I want to see a cure for MS within my lifetime, to ease their minds more than mine. There are currently 2.5 million people living with MS worldwide. That’s a hell of a big band of brothers and sisters, united because of a dodgy central nervous system.

For me? It would mean an end to excruciating trigeminal neuralgia and disabling fatigue. No more being unable to write because of painful eyes. Listening to the TV instead of watching it. Cancelling events I had been looking forward to for eons.

Like every other person living with an incurable, progressive illness that affects the every cell of your body, I want to see it removed. Until then, we wait. We wait patiently or impatiently. We hope. We hope that day will come soon. And when it happens, I want to be there.


About Billie ThumbnailAbout Willeke

Neurologically challenged by MS and personally by her will to succeed, Willeke is a disability awareness advocate seeking to improve neurological/MS services in Ireland. By highlighting difficult issues that come with such a diagnosis, she hopes her tenacity can bring some dignity to people most in need of a modern, inclusive healthcare system that looks after every aspect of life.

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